I am not sure how many of you reading this piece has experienced the unfortunate incident of having an ex-girlfriend/boyfriend die so young. And the shock is; I only spoke to her a week ago.
Last week, I was hit with another hard reality and I began to wonder a lot, importantly, if I was really good to her.
Though my ex-girlfriend, we’ve always been on talking terms and the last time we spoke, she wanted to me pass by her new office and pick up her MTN sim card which I’ve always wanted the number.
Probably, she knew she had few days to go but that didn’t seem like it because she was full of energy in her voice as she told me; “I am getting a new number from Airtel that I think I like so come for that sim card you’ve always wanted”. And “when coming for it, better bring me some lunch”.
I should have rushed to go for it that day with the lunch in my hand but I told her I will pass by next week. She didn’t live to see next week and I didn’t see her again and will never see her again in this world.
Though I am had moved on with a new girl, this has hit me more than anything and to think about the fact that she is just 26 makes it very scary.
I am sure you may be wondering what killed her; it was Typhoid I’ve been told and for many months, the doctors have treated it as malaria.
I don’t know who to blame, God or the doctors. I understand finding someone to blame will not bring her back but at least, that will give me someone to hate for ending it so soon for her.
She is gone and now I keep asking myself this; was I good to her? Did I treat her well and why didn’t I just put everything aside to go and get her that lunch when she asked me to come?
Hmmmm! “I wish I did” but this phrase is of no use today, she is gone for good and I failed to take charge of the last chance to see her smile.
Her name was Grace and I hope she continues to live in my mind and pray she is given a good resting place by the FATHER in heaven.
Life is really not worth the mess we put others through and the dirtiness we play. Next time I am given an opportunity to make someone smile, I will quickly grab it because you never know what someone is battling with.
hmmmmmm so sad
I know exactly how you feel. It’s not easy by any means and the only thing that will help is time. Time heals all wounds. It’s very difficult losing a loved one, especially one you are extremely attached to mate, my condolences… Know one thing, she is your Guardian Angel and she will always be with you! You feel depressed and bored because of the true and intensed love you feel towards her and she is not there for you to show it. I am sure she will want you to keep on living and live with full lungs. One day you two will meet and you will have an eternity together. Whoever you are your a true gentlemen, keep your head up
hmmmmm, this is sad
Death is so scary is become my number one fear..I pray for my love ones more than me…I don’t know what they would do when I’m no more there..May her soul rest in perfect peace ….I understand your pain dear